September 13, 2020
Travelling internally could have many meanings - like The Fantastic Voyage, a dream, the movement of food as it makes its way through the digestive tract, and a psychotherapeutic or spiritual path for instance. In this case the internal trip refers to the use of psychedelics during Covid-19. Now it just so happens that such use coincided with this arrival of the virus that is wreaking havoc all over the globe. Those of us who like to travel far, seeking adventure, novelty or relaxation (definitely a first world issue) have likely been stopped from engaging in such activities, although many of us can still go for a walk around the block, or travel inter or intra provincially. There was a time, and this may come again as winter approaches, where we may be in lockdown or confined to a small radius around our neighbourhoods.
I however have discovered how to travel internally within the safety of my own home. What began as a therapeutic endeavour with my partner, continues to deepen and broaden our relationship with each other and ourselves. MDMA for example, has served as a catalyst to our couples’ work – giving us a year’s worth of therapy in a few hours. Setting an intention of working with trust, openness and vulnerability has achieved just that, and the effects have been long lasting. For those of you, not in the know, this medicine is a love drug, flooding the brain with serotonin and oxytocin.
All fear and defensiveness disappeared and we found that we could talk about anything, even the most difficult of subjects, that without this little helper might result in a fight, getting stuck or shutting down. Journalling our discoveries, has helped reinforce our ability to remember our conversations and insights. The drug heightens the senses and is extremely sensual. All manner of touch is not only welcome but feels exquisite. It has brought us closer in so many ways – psychological, emotional and physical.
Another trip we have taken is with 5MEO-DMT. And it’s not even illegal on the street! It seems to be especially useful for one’s own personal work. Creating an intention with either 5MEO-DMT or MDMA (and perhaps with all psychedelics) appears to set a course that guides the exploration in the desired direction. 5MEO-DMT at lower doses brings on hallucinations, while higher doses pitch one into an alternate space where there may be dissolution of the self, an extreme release and you may even meet up with unusual entities. My intentions have revolved around reducing fear, letting go and freedom. While the immediate experience is extremely short-lived (anywhere from a few minutes to an hour), what has been more significant are the after effects. I can say this for both 5MEO and MDMA. Travelling internally has seemed to enhance mood, openness and an even greater willingness to step into the unknown.
Now while I would never advocate that anyone take these drugs, and especially without supervision or outside of a drug trial, they have certainly allowed me to go where I have never gone before.
- Anonymous Contributor #9
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